I'm frustrated because life's not perfect, therefore nothing is perfect. Maybe you've gone through this too, so you can understand where I'm coming from.
I paint this picture in my head of how I want my life to go. Needless to say, nothing I have planned in the past has EVER gone as planned. It's really annoying. All I want is to live the life I have in my head! Its not fair. I try to be an optimist but honestly being an optimist is extremely annoying. I wish I could live in a Taylor Swift song, or even Gaga's Just Dance song because according to her song if you "just dance, gonna be okay." (not true...after dancing, all the stresses of life,unhappiness etc. usually comes rushing back.)
Ugh. Life! No, I'm not depressed, but I just want to fast forward to the future to see how my life turns out so that I can make sure that everything I'm doing right now is worth it, ya know? So that I feel comfort in my future, or force myself to change my present so that my future can go into a better direction..........rambling, I know! but....UGH. LIFE. But I guess it's not supposed to be easy right?
on that note....
word.
Ellie
oh, Ellie...that's what sooooo great about life- the not knowing. if we new what our life was going to turn out like there would be no excitement. yeah, you could get rid of a few mistakes but it would be predicatively boring, ya know? sure life is gonna throw you curve balls but you will also get many great surprises along the way :)
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