I'm an emotional wreck.  Seriously, my emotions go up and down on a minute by minute basis lately.  One second I am super excited about leaving and going on a mission.  Then on nights like this, it gets really, really difficult to imagine gone for a year and half, away from my niece and nephews.

I can live without my siblings. 

I might even be able to live without my parents. 

But I cannot imagine living without my babies.  I am scared that they wont remember me or love me the same way when I get back.

Tonight I watched my little nephew Broderick.  He was so hyper after his bath, and I chased him around the apartment, tickling him and trying to record his cute little giggle in my mind.  And later I cuddled with him for a half hour, and I couldn't help but kiss his hair every chance I got.  How will I survive without these moments?

Oh geez.

And it doesn't help that I am obsessed with this new Taylor Swift song:



 

I thought I was over Taylor Swift, dang it!