Confession #11: Sometimes life throws you curveballs and you get hit in the face...i just got hit

Life can sometimes suck. No really, it can. Life can sometimes be unbearable. Life sometimes hate you. Sometimes, life just really wants to piss you off. Yes, if you couldnt tell by now, i am bitter. I mean, I've worked my [butt] off for the IB diploma and I probably wont be getting it because i have panic attacks during tests. And guess what? I'm not even done. I have a 3.699 and i should have a 3.70 but i have a stupid math teacher who cant remember making a deal with me to change a certain grade...well guess what? i did the work! and he refuses to change the grade and because of his evilness i wont be graduating with high honors... So among other things, my life has not been going as i envisioned it. dreams are shattered and life takes you on detours. Sometimes you just have to learn to play the game....NOT.

ANYWAY, the point to the previous paragraph full of misery and strife (I'm being overly dramatic...) is that yes, life sometimes is not fun. But giving up is so much worst. I told my dad recently that if you never try you never fail, and if you never fail then at least you can pretend that you might have been able to do it. you know what he said? he gave me a typical Alberto C. answer. He said: life is like climbing a mountain (yes, he is officially obsessed), sometimes you are so close to the summit but conditions force you to have to climb down. But it doesn't matter because the next day, you get up and you try again until you climb that mountain.

In many ways, he is very right. If you never try, you will never get anywhere. I don't want to live like that. I want to die trying. No, I will claw my way until i get what i want. Because the only people that determine your life is YOU. If someone else doesn't think your good enough, then all i can say is pfffffffffffft. Other people putting obstacles in your way should not deter what you do. The only person that will truly stop you is yourself. So, what i'm saying in a very round about way is that we all should do what we want to do, be what we want to be. Life can only suck if you let yourself think it sucks. We all go through hard things, terrible things. But they make us stronger, they make us better. We should measure ourselves by our own achievements, not those of others. So, lets be happy people! we only get one life ;)

Until next time...


Ellie

PS. Btw...about the picture; how can we ever hate life when we have gorgeous places like that to see?